20 october 2025
The stress has increased since the last time I wrote here, but it hasn't been anything I can't handle. Consider it live fire exercise for my mental defenses, I don't know.
I figured things would get easier as time went on, that assignments wouldn't be as hard once I knew how to do them. I was wrong. Things don't get easier, you just have to get better at handling stress or fall behind. Unlike a few years ago, I chose the former, and have so far managed to stay on top of everything thrown at me. It's stressful, but what fun is life without a little difficulty?
Things would probably be more manageable if I weren't in reserve to help multiple people with their mental health, but I signed up for this. Even if it were easier, life wouldn't be nearly as enjoyable without the knowledge that I'm keeping others at least somewhat sane, and I doubt I'd be able to handle seeing them get worse. Better to burn bright keeping others warm and burn out quickly than to stay quietly aflame, right? Not like I can't refuel myself.
Anyways, see you all whenever I have a thought I feel like venting. Doubt anyone will read this anyways, but if you are, come send me an email on the intranet email system. I'm curious who actually reads my rambling.