26 october 2025
It gets worse before it gets better. That's been true as far back as I can remember, but it would be nice if the 'it gets worse' part was shorter and the 'it gets better' part was longer. You'd think I'd have more ways of dealing with this after 8 years of handling my mental problems, but seeing as I only found a way to handle the worst parts of depression a year ago, I guess progress is just slow. Trial and error, with a lot more error than I'd like.
Depression showed up today, hardest it has in multiple months. It thought it could kick me while I was down, make things worse like it could before I found a solution against it. It was wrong, but now I'm unable to enjoy things I usually do, so I suppose it got the last laugh there. I could fix that too if I really cared, I suppose, but currently I don't care enough to fix a problem that will go away with time anyways.
Going outside might help, but it's cold out there. Worth a shot, I suppose? Certainly wouldn't hurt to walk around for a bit, not like I have anything better to do. I'll write an update if it does help, unless I forget to.
Edit: Walking around for a bit did help. By a bit, I mean an hour. I definitely need to walk around more, seeing as walking for an hour exhausted me, but that's a problem for later. Depression's gone for now though, so it worked.