31 august 2016
Because sanqui's post might have come across wrong, there's no worries about ttbp breaking. One of the joys of tilde.town is that we're all just happy to share, and thigs break all the time. I don't want people to feel like they can't use these feels tools to the breaking point. That's hw god community software evolves, right? ;)
Anyways, I've been down a bit lately, but with far less reason than many people who have been sharing. As is typical of me, when I feel like my sadness is worth less than the sadness of others I simply bury it and wait for it to go away. That never works, of course, so I went out and had a nice lunch with a good friend and we talked about it. It was pheomenal and, while I still find thigs to be down about, I'm feeling better than I felt a few days ago.
I really want to help with the various ideas that are foating around for improving discoverability on tilde.town. I never have much time, though, and when I do I'm usually burnt out already and just want some down time. The town is a community that I really believe is totally awesome, though, and I want to see it thrive.
What I need to do first, though, is get my personal stuff in order. My house is a total mess, and I have never truly fiished a personal project that I've started. I need to fix that, and I stumbled across something that may help me. More to comes as I unravel my life plans.
Being 34 going on 35 has been a very difficult year for me mentally, I think. I feel like I haven't accomplished as much as I should have. I feel like I've wasted a lot of my talent and potential (when I believe I have any talent at all, of course). Especially financially, I feel so strained and feel like I'm wasting so much money. I've never been good with planning, but slowly over this year I've started to get the basics dow, for my own sanity.
Anyways, this is probably the longest feels post I've made. I hope to make more of these as I get into the swing of sharig what's on my mind. Take care, folks!