11 october 2017

I don't like opening myself up.

Right at this moment, I'm feeling lost and scared and useless. Writing that sentence was very difficult, because I don't like other people to know when I feel weak.

This isn't about sadness. Crying, empathy, emotions ... those aren't weaknesses to me. Fear. Fear of change. Fear of failure. It's fear that is my greatest challenge, my greatest weakness.

I always feel like I should be hiding or running away. Scratch that, I feel like I'm already hiding and running away from most challenges.

My mind is screaming at me to erase this post. I fear people will misunderstand. I fear I'm wasting people's time.