~marcus@TTBP



14 april 2022

Well, it looks like it's been around 4 years since I last posted a feel? That's a long time.

I'm not even sure what I want to write here, I just know that I really wanted to write something down.

This is feels, so what am I feeling? Complex feelings abound.

First, I am tired. There's an element of physical tired, but I also feel a touch of mental rundown. I don't sleep well in the best of times, and the last couple nights have been a bit restless.

I feel pressure lately to prove to myself that I can actually program. Funny, I've worked in tech for more than 20 years now, and I still feel that imposter syndrome so strong.

But, I also feel pretty good. I am respected and appreciated at home and at work. There are many hobbies to pursue and entertainment to consume. I wish I could output more creativity, but I haven't been feeling inspired much lately.

This has been a small update. Hope y'all are doing alright!