02 november 2021
We're still around and pop in almost daily to do botany, so no worries- we're here. Just low on energy to answer emails and do feels. Life has been hectic and we're trying to work through some internal issues we have with how we relate to each other (some of us are too controlling of everyone else, others have unresolved mental health issues that are influencing their interactions, etc.). We're alright, just tired and working through things to be better people to one another.
Also struggling a bit with making important lifestyle changes to make sure we stay healthy in the distant future. Managing to exercise more and enjoying that (hooray for bike rides being tolerable and fun!), but dietary changes are a brain riot. It feels like too much change, too fast, even though we're taking it slow and easing into it. The prospect of more change is overwhelming but we need to do it to ensure we stick around, given recent lab results and our family history. It's a lot for us to deal with even if it's not a lot for other people. Our brain throws a fit over changes that it shouldn't have a problem with according to everyone else. Gotta love "insistence on sameness" and "rigidity" and "resistance to change" that comes with being autistic /s. It's a perpetual problem and very frustrating for everyone involved. We WANT to make the changes. It's just terror-inducing and makes us want to jump out of our skin because it's intolerable in a way we can't describe. Large or sudden changes feel BAD even when we want them and they benefit us.
On the upside, biology class is finally making more sense. We've pulled up out of raw chemistry and are talking DNA now. Something we're pretty familiar with! Hopefully that frees up energy for other things since making sense of the chemistry has been draining us.
Ongoing projects: battlejacket patch making, trying to finish a song or two, tweaking a Python program made for a final (we want to add a word typing game if we have the time), and building a few towns in Minecraft. Self-improvement stuff, if that counts. See also, mapping ourselves out properly because we need to keep better track of people inside.
To do: GUI PluralNotes, learn melodica properly, practice bass more (we're trying to play Hysteria by Muse, and we need to get up to tempo), make more bread