17 november 2021
Doing okay today. Still feeling off but it's better than it was yesterday, so that's good. Been keeping busy too. Went on a bike ride earlier, did a bunch of class assignments that got dumped on us with no warning, did... something? I know we spent a while looking for a tire pump (funnily enough, it was velcro strapped to our bike the whole time). I feel like I forgot something important in there, not sure what but there's just this feeling that I'm missing something. Oh well, it'll pop up if we really need to know it (hopefully). Oh, wait! We meditated in a park partway through the bike ride. Maybe that was it. It was nice and I think it relieved at least a little tension. Winter break is much-needed at this point. We're overstressed to the point of nightmares making a reappearance. Ugh. Really hate our dreams lately.
Been working on a battlejacket with Kaz and that's coming along. They added 6 handmade patches last night! Hopefully they can figure something out for the back patch since I don't think they have a plan for it yet. We need to get screwback studs sometime too but it's hard to find exactly what Kaz wants there. It's a comfortable jacket luckily! And we feel safer with it on. I wonder if that's from Kaz being closer to front, or if it's just the social protection of wearing a jacket with patches on it. I don't know about you, but I wouldn't mess with the guy in a battlejacket.
I still feel like I'm forgetting something, so I guess the meditation wasn't it. Ugh. I hate this feeling. I hope I remember soon. I don't think I'm the guy who usually writes feels but I don't know. I feel younger than he is, and more... something I can put into concepts but that doesn't translate easily into words? Self metadata or something.
Anyway! We're alright, just stressed and tired. Same as usual I guess! We'll pull through as usual. Just have to keep moving.