29 december 2021
Is botany broken for anyone else? It's throwing exceptions galore and we didn't do anything differently. It's saying a file in someone else's home directory doesn't exist.
We're doing pretty okay lately. I think we're finally starting to settle into the way we're internally arranged now, though my own parts are still kind of at odds and I really need to work with myself more. I'm getting along great with Kaz though. There's some stress over... something, I'm not sure what or can't get to it right now. It's not bad though and overall we're doing alright. Not the best in the world but not nearly as rough as it's been, just kind of coasting right now until the next quarter starts on Tuesday. Thinking we should finish up some articles we've been working on for our site and write music while we have the time.
I don't know what it is about feels, but it makes it easier to dig up whatever's bothering us when we put things in a safe public space. People here have been very kind and lovely to talk to, so it feels safe here. We don't have to hide parts of ourselves. I guess that means we're able to access things we can't normally and feel them, which is kind of the point since this is called feels? It's a good thing.
Anxiety over... something. I still can't quite get at it. I think it has something to do with social roles, community, and people, but we're going to have to think on it more and figure that out. Maybe something about the way we're online outside of town? I don't know. It'll come up.
Holidays went well! We have things to organize our desk and working area better now, which is helpful for focus. Was nice to see people.