01 march 2022
Feeling kind of overwhelmed by the regular (impending and current) calamities. War in Europe, war elsewhere, environmental collapse, raging pandemics, late stage capitalism, and so on. The classics, or soon to be. A piece of my cringes at bringing these things up, like they weren't valid, like they weren't quite real. We're all indifferent most of the time -- I think we have to be, to get by. It's not reasonable to always keep implending disasters and current injustices in mind. One has to live, too.
Guessing I'm just scared.
Probably slipping back into indifference, or some form of ironic distance, or whatever it is, soon. Not that I think this is good, just necessary, at least occasionally. But what we'd need is a lot more fear, a lot more anger. People throwing bricks. But for what? What is the goal? I know what I think but my neighbours disagree.
If something will kill us, it's a combination of indifference and indecisiveness.
Also, the third covid vaccine dose gave me a fever.