13 march 2022
Went on a small "hike" with my partner and two of her friends. Was really pleasant, although we forgot a bunch of stuff and had to improvise. But the soup finally got warm and the pancakes fried. During the morning, I felt fairly stressed out about all the time the hike would take. I wanted to do some work in the evening, get some writing and coding done, maybe do some reading (things that feel like progress) but I managed to shake that after a while. The will to create often hinders me from enjoying the moment, even when I'm with people I love. But I'm getting better. Now, I feel a strange calm, and it's only 15 o'clock. I have loads of time.