20 march 2022
Now and again, I experience a strange feeling. It's always very recognizable, and always eerie. Feels like some form of dissociation, but it only lasts for around half a minute, and only occurs once every couple of months, maybe less often.
When it happens, I feel like there's a distance that builds up. Like I, the part of my that thinks, is retracted far away in some "mind space". If I had to describe it I'd describe it as if the space in my head grew, and my thoughts were concentrated in a small central area. It feels like my body is further away.
At the same time, I also recall a smell. I think it's a smell, or it's a general sensation -- hard to tell. This sensation is infused with nostalgia, and for some reason it reminds me of old modelling clay I used to play with as a kid.
Or, maybe I experienced this sensation for the first time when I played with clay, and now the sensation forever reminds me of that first occurance and the current setting.
Not sure what to make of this. I'm not really worried. When it happens, it doesn't feel very nice, but it always passes and I quickly stop thinking about what just had happened. I return to normal.
The mind is strange.