30 march 2022
One thing I would like to let go of is irritation. Being annoyed with other people. It happens now and then, especially with people I'm close with. I sometimes cannot let it go, and I just go around being irritated, occupied with this feeling, that is in no way satisfying. I'm afraid this will make me more suseptible to bitterness as a I grow older. That it will grow to an actual impediment in my personal relationships.
But I can also not always accept when people do not do what they promise, when they act in a way that is makes me feel worse (but which makes sense to them,). Hard to strike a balance.
I've experienced this strange desire to just be alone for a while. To be free, uninhibited. Not sure I actually want that. But I don't want the fear of regrets hold me back too much.