28 april 2022
It's hard to calm down. I want to feel in control over myself. I don't want to let bad thoughts run wild. I heard somewhere that people who walk fast are less happy. If that's true, it's surely not the fast walking that decreases happiness -- there's some shared cause. But I'm definitely a fast walker. Whenever I'm going somewhere, I always, consciously or unconsciously, try to optimize the path, make sure the travel time is as short as possible. So that I have more time for doing things I actually want to do. I never fully relax, especially not lately. Not even when I'm with my partner. Not sure what I need to do, but surely something.