03 march 2019
My birthday is tomorrow, and I hope I'll have a great day! :D I'll be turning 19 and I might get to see a good old friend tomorrow. Sadly I didn't get to see my crush today, but it turned out that she was sick, and I hope she gets better. I think that she likes me now, so that's great to feel! :) I do worry about my classes, since I can't study and have felt too exausted to do it, I can't believe I managed to get half way through this semester by hardly handing in any assignments, or even learning anything in the class, it all feels like a waste of time, though I'll admit I was wasting my own time by not paying attention. If only people can freely learn what they want to learn about, outside of what is potentionally employable. Also I waited the whole day so we could watch Infinity War and these lazy shitbirds are just on the phone for two hours, wasting the time we get. And then after a fresh day of doing nothing at all, they'll be going to bed because they're "tired". I wish that I could move in with my good friends and we could watch movies together. At least they won't piss away my time and want to build moments with me :( Back when we watched it three months ago was the last time we ever watched a movie as a family. I don't get to know what being in a good family is like. All I hope for is my birthday isn't ruined tomorrow, because we all get at least one day each year to celebrate about ourselves.