28 july 2019
I have a really intense crush on a friend, so much I worry if I am becoming too attached to her. I am not completely sure if she is even attracted to men, so that's embarrasing. I thought about her the whole day since I was really bored and had nothing to do. She was tired, and besides, a thunderstorm was coming, and then the clouds just passed by and the storm never came.
Today I tried to talk to another friend about it, but she was going to visit Japan tomorrow. Either way, it feels that only my crush ever genuinely tries to give me the time of day.
I have never found anyone I had more in common with, we click so well and I'm thankful everyday that she is in my life. I have no idea what I would do without her, and I admit that it worries me too much. Her parents gave me $50 so that we could get ice cream, so we got Korean food instead haha. While I do appreciate her, I wish that other friends would ask me to hangout with them once in a while. She invites me places, and that means a lot to me. We can't possibly be the only two people we know that aren't busy, right?
I probably won't say anything for now, I care more about our friendship than my greater feelings. I have to stop being this foolish.