17 december 2019
I am really starting to despise life. All I was ever taught is that there is nothing worthwhile to live for and that there is nothing to do. Capitalism stole my friends and stole any sense of happiness for me. I haven't been in school since last April and haven't got a regular job since, and yet I stil feel tired and exausted and struggling to find any meaning for myself. I feel soo distraught about my future and my parents couldn't give a single fuck. They have made me feel afraid to tell them anything about my personal problems.
I just want to live.