15 march 2020
The world is about to end from corona virus or something, anyway the media got a hold of the official name CODVID-19 or something like that, made for nerds that can't speak the language of the proles. It reminds me of a lot of whimps that used "cannabis" in all contexts instead of "weed" back when they legalized it. Anyway, so coronavirus may have just screwed my plans, as I wanted to go to a park with my great friend and admit my feelings to her.
You see, the problem with me is that I basically get strong feelings for whoever I feel gives me the most quality attention, and she's probalby the only person in my entire life that will give me that much. The other problem is that I always admit my feelings after a state of constant internal panic. Like right now, this virus could infect her and she might die, maybe. Then I ask the girl out, and get turned down, and then I say that's okay but who am I kidding I have too much faith in everything and then I am back to square one.
Basically I hate the grand reptition in my life and I'm not sure if I feel about doing this shit all over again. Dumbass coronavirus throwing a wrench into my plans! I wouldn't be worried of some internal panic of missing my chance right now!