29 march 2020
I am feeling quite lonely because of CODVID-19 keeping us all trapped inside our homes. It makes me really miss a lot of my friends. I wanted to go to a park with a friend but now this got in the way, and I hate it so much. I get a flutter in my chest just talking to any of my friends, that's how pathetic I've become, a romantic flutter, from just talking. I've even gotten this when talking to a ramdom guy I've met on Discord, and I'm straight ffs lol. Why do I crave for attention?
I would do anything to see my friends again. I'm ordering Animal Crossing tomorrow in the hopes that I can play with two of my friends, which hopefully is worth the bullshit $80 they charge for video games these days. My family sucks, they're still doing the same shit they've done before this quarantine and still don't care about spending any time with me. I would do anything for a family actually interested in spending time with each other. Right now I just want to be held, and hugged by someone who loves me for who I am. I never feel rested, I feel aways in stress. The one person that can melt all the stress out of my chest right now, can't hold me, or lean on my shoulder. i love you uwu <3