reflections on my exile, and praises for God

My exile began on 7 August, 2017 Anno Domini. Approximately. So it has been approximately 6 years and 4 months, since then. What have I achieved in this time?

I got a sign of approval from God, through the appearance of a mystic woman named Joy. (in the year of 2021 Anno Domini, approximately).

And I have laboured with pain and the sweat of my back, and, as wages, received a few abstract symbols of value - currency or money.

And I have also worked hard at relationships. I have friends - good or evil, I cannot tell - who give me free, gratis, specialty coffee, when I show up at the cafe(s) where they work. And discounts on my purchases of Scottish whisky.

But, as an emissary who came before me said: “Brothers, I do not think that I have obtained it yet. One thing I do: forgetting what lies behind, and pressing forward, for the prize of the upward call of God in Messiah Yeshua.”

Am I a good person, kind and nice, as others say? I think I can allow myself to feel proud for being a worker that God has personally groomed and trained. God sees that I am worthy, and that I am fit to do work in His kingdom.

I am no longer abandoned. Now I feel sought after. As the Scriptures say: “behold, the old has passed away, and the new has come. Whoever is in Messiah Yeshua is a new creation.”

O, thou kind Lord! Who am I, a wretched servant of yours, that you heal me as I lie down on my sickbed, surrounded by enemies and false friends and false brothers, who wait for me to die without helping me? Now I know that God’s love endures from the time of His chosen servant-kings, (David and Solomon), and the time of His friend, (Abraham), to the present moment, and even to eternity future! How happy I am!

And, of course, this a deeper, more satisfying joy than mere intoxication with caffeine, alcohol or other poisons! Those momentary intoxicant-induced feelings of bliss will fade away after time, and bring about feelings of sorrow in their inevitable absence, but the pure wine of the holy, holy, holy love of God never stops flowing in my life, even if I have no money! Thanks be to God for this indescribable gift!

Hallelujah! Let all creation bless Adonai Elohei Sabaoth, the one and only King of Heaven, from eternity past to eternity future! In the name of Messiah Yeshua, the faultless sacrificial Lamb of God, amen!

Looking forward, I see no easy way out of my imprisonment on this island. While the authorities of this island may be able to imprison my physical body, the word of God cannot be shackled! Nor can it be contained nor bound! How awe-inspiring is the power of God, of whom I am only a vessel! This vessel will inevitably crumble one day, as with all vessels that have come before me, but God’s chosen servant(s) live forever more, in a more glorious form, as Messiah Yeshua and Emissary Paul (formerly Executioner Saul) have demonstrated before me!

Now, may I strive to emulate their stellar examples, in a fuller and more perfect way, with each sunset - and full moon - that God gives me the grace to see! (“grace” being defined as unmerited favour).

Maranatha! Come, King Jesus! This kingdom belongs to you, and your servant has done his best to make it ready for your arrival!

Here is a book that caught my attention recently:

“At the altar of sexual idolatry”, by Steve Gallagher. (2007). Published by: Pure Life Ministries, in Dry Ridge, KY, U.S.A.