14 january 2025
I've not been very consistent, but thankfully I've been overall well.
Yesterday I got really sad all of a sudden for some reason. It was the first day of the spring semester, and it just seemed like all my classes were gonna be a drag. That wasn't the case, of course, but I felt like it. I asked my girlfriend if it's possible for her to be more affectionate to help, and she thankfully complied this time. Even if it was for a little while, it did help. That's all that counts. I just want to be treated the same way I treat other people, y'know? This wouldn't be a complicated issue if I didn't have difficulties distinguishing between "this person is not providing me enough love by normal standards" and "I am delusional and I am asking for more and more and more, despite the other person's best efforts." This is because I have BPD, and BPD sucks.
Aside from this, I've been doing alright. I have many gadgets to play with, and I have made progress in playing with them. I wrote some PHP code to generate XML menus for Yealink phones, including some Asterisk integration (like in the good ol' days!) to select a YouTube video and get a phone call with the audio from that video :)
Anyway, I'm now in a Computer Security course. It's shaping up to be pretty fun! Catch you later townies!