14 september 2025
I woke up at 8:30 today, knew I had something planned but couldn't remember what. That is very concerning. It turns out my poor aunt was waiting for me so we can go to Costco together, like I promised we would. Many many other things happened today (and it's only 1pm!) that make me feel really bad about putting my aunt through that. But, oh well. I can't turn back time or correct past mistakes, only learn from them and move on.
When looking for some pictures of myself in our chat so that I could catalog them/use them for apps/update my profile pictures, I read some messages between me and my ex that were cute and they reminded me that 2 years ago, we really weren't in a bad spot. They also reminded me that I haven't been a terrible person for any part of the relationship, and therefore I really have no reason to feel bad. Most of all, though, they made me think back fondly on those times, but without feeling sad or guilty. And that's where I wanna be in life, and in this situation. I don't want it to faze me, especially not negatively, but I also want to appreciate the good times no matter what.
I'm planning to spend today working on personal projects and relaxing. I took a nice shower and took one of my friends' advice to not use shampoo for a while, to see if my hair would stop turning so greasy so soon. Also, I look phenomenal in those photos, holy shit. I miss those times, and now I have one more positive thing to strive for from my past.
Someone saw my Shavian text in my bio on Boo, and sent me a message about it. The plan to attract the kind of people I'd want to be friends with in the first place, instead of people who are fundamentally incompatible and I would have to shape myself around them again, is working >:)
Next week, I plan to practice driving (especially parking), schedule my driving test at some point, and then show up for my first day at my new job on the 22nd. I'm excited about what my future holds!