22 september 2025
I am able to identify gaslighting and dismissal now. Unfortunately I am still too late to identify it and too compassionate, but there'll come a time when I am able to choose my peace and full-send people who do not benefit me out of my life.
The rundown of today: I woke up, I took an Uber to the office, was VERY pleased with the office building and how it looks (it's so cool!!!!), I had an excellent start to my work, training went well, I have one coworker who is training alongside me for the same position of support agent, I made a BUNCH of accounts, got a work laptop to keep my work and life separate, learned the importance of staying focused at work, learned the ins and outs of CallSapiens which is the UCaaS platform used by the company, found out there's a mall next to the office building, found out that its food court has my FAVORITE burger place (incredible burger), got to know a lot of my coworkers despite the office being empty sans the three of us (me, my coworker in training, and our boss). There's a Slack with everyone in the company, and everyone works from home so the office is pretty barren. This is excellent and saves me a LOT in commuting, especially since I don't have a car.
That being said, I have a lot to be proud of. I would like to take a moment to thank nebula, pilosophos, rbiv, turnipgod and anyone else I've played VR games with, for being patient with me and for bringing me so many good times. I would also like to thank myself for not giving up so I can get to this point. I would like to tell myself, once and for all, to stop feeling uneasy about people in my life who do not give a shit, and I would like to say I am proud of myself that I am starting to appreciate the people who do. I hope this can finally stick in my mind.
My fabomotizole arrived from Amazon the day after I ordered it, despite delivery saying it wouldn't be here for a week. Turns out it was in a warehouse in Hazel Park, MI. How funny! The universe is finally on my side and shining down on me.