27 september 2025
I had a good time driving during today's lesson, but I couldn't help but notice how driving around reminds me of my ex. Mostly because she was the one who would drive us places, and the one that introduced me to "normal" American life outside of university. A tricky position indeed. However, that just means that I have to do some self-work to replace those memories with new ones; once I get a car and my license, that'll become achievable :)
Uh oh. That set me off to have The Thoughts for the rest of the day, and none of my coping mechanisms nor self-reliance helped me. Oops. What did help was a cat and a nice, hearty meal (although I felt sick after the meal...) Regardless, I persevered. Earlier I set a five-minute timer and told myself to feel all there is to feel, then say "ok, I'm done." If need be, I told myself I could set another 5-minute timer, until it was all out of my system.
I did not expect to start sobbing. But sob I did, and I got it all out of my system. Excellent stuff!
One of my peers from the walkie-talkie firmware community told me about a new device that has a giant screen, very good capabilities and the platform seems to be documented rather well. I might try to make Yet Another OpenRTX Port for it, this time hopefully the DSP gives me less grief. If the microcontroller is connected to the radio chip for both input and output, and it is connected to the speaker and mic, there's a definitive possibility to make digital communications modes work. We're talking M17, APRS, all the cool stuff. Writing this out gets me excited about it, moreso than thinking about it!
Someone that I thought I'd get along with unmatched me after the second message. I asked how their weekend was and if they were up to any adventures. How bizarre.