29 september 2025
Still Sep 28th, 2025.
I ate quiche. I got on a call with a friend instead of taking a nap. I said I would literally do fucking anything to be distracted, so I did their networking homework (with them watching - I instructed them through it, I didn't do it for them, really) and we played sooooo much Redactle. Turns out she likes it a lot! I'm glad I rescued the end of my day as such.
I am grateful that my ex never opened any of my Spotify links or YouTube links. It would've been unimaginable if every part of me and every interest was tied to her. Uh oh, I just remembered my ex pays for my Spotify under her family plan. A new thing to be anxious about... even though it has zero significance.
--- Sep 29th, 2025 --- I woke up earlier than I wanted to and couldn't fall back asleep. Did some stuff, then tried to fall back asleep. Slept for half an hour before I woke up again due to dreams about my ex. I'm at work now and I am going to do my darndest to not feel bad. I need to let go, or else I'll be dragged. I don't owe anyone anything except myself. I don't mean I owe people myself, I mean I owe myself stuff. Gratitude, kindness, affection and care.
Work has been a little hectic, and lunch break is late.
4:30pm. Work is now less hectic, and lunch break was nice. I had more quiche :) We're having a meeting/seminar about setting up fax phone numbers, and I like the hair color of the person instructing us through it. They seem really cute and nice :) but I'm saying this as an observation, not as romantic interest.