14 october 2025
I had a phenomenal Monday. It's now 2:26AM UTC (22:26 EST) and I am so glad and happy and grateful for myself and my friends.
Today's markov chain wisdom: realizing that you are no longer who you were, but it will be, we will hold on together until the end. yes, I remember those states of collapse under my brother's hood and your eyes on my masculine palms, but I forgot. such is fate. and despite you, I am able to fix the son.
--- Oct 14th, 2025 --- Work started rough, and with some mistakes. I try to communicate stuff as clearly as possible and the other person often ends up repeating what I said to me. I am suffering from "I know I know I know" syndrome, and trying to keep my cool and just let them explain it again, then say "aha, ok, got it". It's vital if I'm going to protect my inner peace and not go bald by age 30. This should not get to me.
I'm excited about town con; today, I will start drafting how to pack and what I'll bring.
Work has been busy. I hope that tonight I get a chance to go for a walk, as I haven't done so in quite a while. The sun is setting spookily fast lately, and it will only get worse.