26 october 2025
Today has been a day of rest and recovery. Last night I went to that concert and had an absolute blast. It also meant I bonded significantly more with Miss "I saw you three days in a row, so I'm gonna wait till next week before we hang out again so we don't get bored of each other."
My mood is quite high, but I'm also slightly conflicted about all of the people that I have been talking to, who I have been affectionate towards and they think they have some kind of chance at being romantically involved with me. They didn't before, and they have even less of a chance now. I would like to summon the courage and mental fortitude to politely tell them that I am no longer interested in doing certain things with them because I do not wish to lead them on, even by misunderstanding. I'll see how that ends up, and how it turns out. One of these people, I am playing VRChat with tonight, just because we made plans that we would do so. It feels like a burden much more than something I look forward to, but I've put it off so much and I'd rather not do it again. I get why people ghost or remove others now; it's significantly easier, but it's not in my nature, nor is it in my ability to do that without feeling guilt. I did do this to myself, though. I cannot say no or set proper boundaries. This, however, is a good learning experience for me.
I came back home from the show at 5am, after getting White Castle and spending a tremendous time cuddling. This meant that I slept till noon, and then when I woke up I had a bit of a sniffly cold. I still do, but that's ok, I'll treat it.