9 december 2025
Today has been yet another day when I am on edge and the slightest shift in vibe from anyone sets my anxiety off. Sometimes the shift in vibe is not so slight at all. I really need to stop basing my own mood on the responses and reactions of others. I have existed before, I exist now, and I will continue to exist regardless of what happens. If I don't let it ruin my mood or set me off, if I don't let the emotion exist past the 90 or so seconds that it takes for the chemicals to be flushed out, it won't exist. I can wait out this depressive episode.
I think this very well might be a manifestation of seasonal depression, and me hooking my entire emotional wellbeing on the responses and overall enthusiasm of this other person, thinking I am solely responsible for theirs, is just a side effect.
- If people are mad at you, it's their responsibility to tell you, not your responsibility to guess
- If they're mad at you in secret anyways, they're the ones in the wrong, not you
- If people don't like what you're doing, it's their responsibility to tell you
- If they say it's fine when it's really not, they're the ones in the wrong, not you
- People are allowed to be wrong about you
- If they are wrong about you, wait for them to bring it up, because if you try to, you will inevitably overcorrect
- Some people are committed to misunderstanding you. You will not win arguments against them. Yes, even if you explain your point of view. They do not care. Drop it
- The worst thing that will happen from a first-time offense is being told not to do it again. Maybe with a replacement if you broke something.
If you are future tunas, please refer to this list.