30 november 2017
Current feeling: Ennui
I don't know if it's better to write down 'ennui' or 'disillusionment'. On the one hand, I'm not really feeling super confident about what the future holds. On the other, I don't know if that really, strictly speaking is 'disillusionment'.
Hold on.
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"dis·il·lu·sion·ment ˌdisəˈlo͞oZHənmənt/Submit noun a feeling of disappointment resulting from the discovery that something is not as good as one believed it to be."
Yeah okay, probably not that. Actually the more I think about it the more I don't know. I've been having some relationship troubles recently and I'm not sure what to do about it since the holidays are coming and we have history now. The drama is over, but I'm not 100% there yet, the feeling of "let's break up after the holidays and begin anew" isn't strong, but it has sure wedged itself in there. Thing is, I don't know if I want it to go away or if I want to do something about it. Well, I guess the whole purpose of ttbp is to desaugarse, which means literally to unflood oneself, but less literally means to let it all out.
I'm glad that tilde.town is still up, this is a great community even if I'm not super technical the way most of the regulars are.