14 february 2026
today has been a very interesting day
it started after i have fallen into a weird youtube-video algorithm some days ago where people created videos in the style of opinion essays and most of them ignited a weird feeling of existencial dread inside of me.
mainly it started with with the video titled "The Persistence of Decay"(1) by Sarah Davies Baker(2) and following this video came other like "to be loved is to be understood, but to be human is to change"(3) by oliSUNvia(4) and "'you don't owe anyone anything' yes you do"(5) by Curiouser and Curiouser with Leonie Dams(6) and many more (for which i probably need to make a playlist).
in addition the first video(1) also let me remember about a playlist i have on youtube in which some videos have been deleted and how in todays world you mostly do not own many things you consume, like movies on netflix, music on spotify and many, many more.
and this makes me surprisingly sad and reminded me that archive music i do in fact own. i really want to do that more, probably also download more music, buy more music, but also how i want to try to buy more physical media, be it in the form of a book, a booklet, a cd or something else.
what makes it even worse and a little bit bitter, is that as someone who studies archaeology and is really interested in textile and woll usage in the neolithic and pre-history in europe and the near east is that "almost all organic material vanishes" and i know that you can counter that today very much but at the same time it is a complicated and complex to do correct and over a very long time, and that preserving knowledge can be harder than expected, especially when it is knowledge that appears unimportant or outdated, even if those attributes makes this knowledge even more important to preserve.