03 december 2024
im sick today and i hate it.
i wrote a song really quick about being sick and using my phone and recorded it on my phone (ironically), cutting out all the bullshit.
i was watching a panel about butch trans women from 2011 i found by looking at the youtube channel of a spoken word piece about transmysoginy that was shared on tumblr.
i later posted a link to the video and some thoughts about connecting with people on the internet.
im especially fixated on connection through screens when im sick because obviously i cant go outside, although that is obviously much prefered.
im kinda burnt out on fedi/mastodon/whatever because i dont really feel content with any of the instances ive been on the past like 3 years.
i like my tumblr blog but i dont reallyyyy have any mutuals on there, not the same way i did on fedi.
plus its hard to have anything worth posting about when you're sick and not leaving the house.
posting is stupid i just wanna go to emo shows 24/7.
maybe i can start filling my calendar up with emo gigs going forward.
i am perpetually disillusioned and aimless always everything is stupid and pointless blahh blah blah blahhhhhhh
i missed karaoke today because im sick i go everyyy monday,, i had plans to hang out with a new friend too :<
i hope i feel better by the weekend cause i have plans but i will probably have to cancel on jamming with my friends this wednesday womp womp.
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10 september 2024
vaped some hash and ate some dumplings.
listening to the new horse jumper of love album on my bed with my friend maebh.
feeling fragile.
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23 may 2024
am very often annoyed by lights triggered by proximity sensors
there is one outside my window, on my porch
it keeps me up at night when people are smoking
sometimes i smoke on my porch
i hang out on it for sure
ive kisses some cute girls on my porch
under that proximity lights
the best kisses were in darkness
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22 may 2024
may 21st
i am feeling really good!
i woke up today to stef, entering my room for date night :D
i slowly woke up and got dressed, and then we went to the rivoli and played pool
im not very good at pool but i had a lot of fun practicing and getting better!
i sunk balls :0
before pool we ordered food and drinks (tonic water and na beer)
food was surprisingly good!
i saw the stage, and remembered the rivoli is also a venue
i asked the bartender what kinds of artists play the venue
she said up and comers, it sounded like lots cancon (canadian content)
which is distinctly different than just like any generic canadian band
from what i understand cancon means like "industry" artists
stef was really good at pool, she won twice !! and she gave me so many helpful tips
i asked questions and she gave me good answers, and really good feedback!
now we're back at mine, we smoked some weed
yesterday me and stef watched paris, texas! thought it was great!
beautiful colours and cinematography and movie making and stuff
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