23 september 2026
Been a couple days off since my last feel...
The day off before last we went to Ikea to find furniture for the shop. We found a nice stand up display case to put expensive things in. Then we went to Home depot, Barnes and Noble and Daiso and I boght Katie things for her birthday that was coming up. We ended the night at home with the dog.
Which leads me to the last day off, yesterday...
Katie and I talked and made the tough decision that it is Tesla's time. Since my last feel about her, her energy and demeanor has declined to a point where we don't think she's happy anymore. She seems to be lost and in pain more than she's not and she really needs to be coaxed into eating anything. We decided to have the vet come to the house where she'll be comfortable and send her off to whatever's next. It's going to happen next Monday, if not soooner.
Since we made the decision, life has been a waking dream. I've just been disassociating from everything and going through the motions. I feel like I've been slowly grieving Tesla's passing over the last few weeks so it comes and goes in little waves now as I realize all the little things that she won't be there for anymore. I'll make a sandwich and realize she won't be there to beg for scraps. I'll be in the garage and realize she won't be there to come looking for me and settle down next to me as I worked. I'll be in the backyard reading a book and look over to the spot she usually sat outside and realize I'll never see her sitting there again.
I wasn't gonna make this post, because I wanted to keep this blog mostly positive. But I needed to say this stuff. The shop has been slow lately and when I'm here I'm by myself unless Katie is here with me, which is rare since we want to have one of us at home with Tesla. I feel like when it finally does happen I'll be sort of relieved. It's real tough seeing her the way she is every day.