27 march 2022

I'm hitting small milestones, like finishing things I planned for a long time, but it doesn't feel like accomplishments.

I don't think I can do this no alcohol thing for much longer. I only remember the good times I had with it and there is so much wrong with my life that I don't know how else to tolerate. Also it's hard not to drink beer in company of beer drinkers. At least if I'm the only one, really do want a beer if I'm honest and it's like this every time I meet friends. Sometimes I really believe it would be better to give in.

Alcohol: none

Tobacco: none

Nicotine: still heavy vaping, 0.5 - 0.75 mg/ml