23 april 2022

I feel like I should write down how I feel today. But I feel like I'm inept to express them in words or any other language. I get out of a relatively deep down this week that lasted for about two weeks. I saw the sense in keeping the life I have right now again and chose to stay in this society for a while longer. But today I really feel that that decision makes sense, that life on this path can be beautiful even for me. And I feel like I should preserve as much of these feelings to remember on days on which I don't feel the same. I don't really know how, though. Other than trying to describe them here. No useful words or phrases come to mind. And honestly, I do think that this one is the irrational, skewed perception of the world. But it's the one that feels better.

Health points yesterday: 226

Alcohol so far: none

Nicotine: heavy vaping, 0 - 0.3 mg/ml