10 january 2023
I came to accept many things of which I hoped I would never be able to accept them. Over the years I became "reasonable" and adopted the "adult" way of thinking in so many things. I resent myself for that. But one thing that I can still hope that I will never accept is that it's kind of normal to expect impossible things from others. I'm expected to keep the speed limit and always go at least 5 over the speed limit. I'm expected to do the work that I'm assigned by my employer and to not work more overtime than law allows. I'm expected to rest after work, do something for fun from time to time, connect with people, sleep wnough, work out, etc. which wouold take at least 30 hours a day. I'm expected to eat healthy and lose weight. That is fucking impossible when always living between two burnouts.
Overall health status estimation: --
Alcohol recently: lots of beer
Nicotine: none but vaping