22 may 2023
CW: Sexual language, masturbation.
I miss how horny I used to get. Even just 5 years ago or so I just got horny if I didn't do anything about it for a while. And doing something about it feld great if I didn't do it all the time. But back then I already thought how nice it was when I didn't have to either build up my libido or be with somebody really special in order to have a great cum. But when I think back 10 years more, I remember even then I missed how fucking horny I used to get as a teenager. Not only culd I jack off every other day and it was fun. It was a much more amazing feeling. I used to get so horny nobody had t touch my private parts in order to make me cum so hard I couldn't control any of my muscles except my heart. And I used to really shoot when I had a good orgasm. It's hard to accept that none of that will come back. I will likely never again have orgasms like I used to. But it's even harder to ontinue the thought and expect that that trend will continue and in a few years I will think back fondly of the time right now, where I could actually build up the horniness enough to be able to jack off half-heartedly every other month as long as I excercised regularly and watched what I ate.
Overall health status estimation: (+)
Alcohol recently: lots on the weekends
Nicotine: none (but sometimes vaping with 0.0 mg/ml)