27 september 2023
I met a doctor today. I didn't consult her in any way about my health. But she deemed it necessary to lecture me kindly about the dangers of overweight, hypertension and their parents caffeine and overeating. I met her unsolicited confrontation with excuses. She didn't seem to be aware that I know how I'm endangering my health and how likely serious complications from heart problems will be in my future if I keep this up as in the last years and at the same time be unable to do anything about it. She called me out on making excuses and, other than every other doctor I talked to before, explained to me what the next steps on the path towards a solution are. I decided to lie that. Having talked to and read from ADHS and otherwise neurodivergent persons and knowing how dificult planning, executive functions and the lie can be, I'm not embarrest that I didn't see that those obviously are the steps to take. But they really were obvious. But layed out as small, ordered steps, I can now take them. Meeting that doctor and talking to her at all was one of the things that I did today only because I recently started to work less. I would not have had the energy for that walk/stroll on which I met her, or to talk to her.
Overall health status estimation: -
Alcohol recently: weekends
Nicotine: none whatsoever