16 january 2017
Back to work and oh so tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiired tired tired tired.
My big worry is that I will turn into a sad adult, who constantly talks about a lack of energy, who comes home and can only manage watching a netflix show because the day just took it out of them. I've avoided this for a long time, but my job these days is taking it out of me.
My other big problem, right now, is that all the stuff I want to do at night requires computers as well. It's creative and interesting and fun, but the screen just kiiiills me come hour 10. I must figure out how to edit my tilde page on a piece of paper, one with gentle not-too-bright colors, and somehow have this scrap piece of paper tunnel in through a terminal i construct out of wood. then I can be as nerdy as I want and save my poor eyes.
I am slooowly maybe getting friends to join tilde.town. I think that'll be interesting and fun. Right now my site is a beautifully lonely place, and this blog is perhaps read by no one. I want this to be social, but don't want to ruin the charming crystal palace this place is now.
i'm gonna go sit on a train with my eyes closed and try to get the energy back. And then I will walk unti l the blood is pumping and open my jacket so the wind chills me to wakefulness. I will balance my life between the night and day and make both equally full.