26 march 2024
I'm back!!
Got my new SSH key hehe. Basically I fucked up my computer and had to
reinstall Linux. I did something wrong when installing KDE and my login
screen broke, then I tried uninstalling using a bunch of commands I really
should have looked into more, and basically made my PC unbootable.
So what I did was use my live boot USB to transfer shit from my computer
to my other USB, and then to my laptop. At the time I didn't know that I
could just dump it on the 2nd hard disk I had, because Windows Fast Boot
was a thing and I didn't know about that. I just didn't realize that
mounting it was an option. Anyway, copying to/from a USB on my Windows
laptop is so slow!! Especially compared to Linux. Wow!!
It's been a while since then. I learned about partitioning my drive so
I can keep my files somewhat safe even when I fuck up and have to
reinstall. I learned about Windows Fast Boot, how to disable it, and how
to use Mint's backup tool to chuck a backup of my /home onto my Windows
drive. It's so nice.
Currently updating my resume so I can apply to jobs. Presentation on
Thursday.
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11 november 2023
Midterm season is finally over but now my cosmology prof's been talking
about how there's less than a month until our exams. Ah well.
Crashed hard on Wednesday and still crashed to be honest. Also got my
blood test results and it's mostly normal except something about sugars.
I'm supposed to change my diet a bit which, fair. I got my blood drawn
during midterm hell so I was snacking a lot. I should find something
else to eat when I'm stressed. The NP recommended fatty foods but also
avoiding trans-fats. E.g. eggs, nuts, avocado.
Testosterone levels are higher than they were last time I got my blood
drawn and we don't know why. I'm on the same dose as I was three months
ago. It is what it is, I guess.
Haven't had time to update either my tilde website or my Neocities
website. Sad.
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29 october 2023
I feel like. A lot of people feel closer to me than I do to them. And I really
would like to feel that closeness. But I feel very lonely despite this. And I
really hate the fucking double bind shit I'm in rn wrt housing. I just want this
all to end.
In other news, blood test on tuesday and maybe I need to get a higher dose of my
medication based on like. What else is going on with me physically and so on.
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14 october 2023
Oh wow it's been a while since I wrote here.
Hello!
Term break is close to over and I still haven't finished my homework.
Most of it is due Thursday anyway but still, I have a test that day
so I'd rather be done that stuff early so I can cram.
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23 may 2023
Currently doing Paper wrt konmari. Thinking of going back to do the
clothing again because I keep secondguessing myself but I also just
want to get this done. Perhaps I'll reflect on it some more later.
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14 may 2023
Started IFS self-therapy after my therapist recommended. Also need to look
into miscues and what not.
Tidied my room pretty nicely I'd say. Didn't do the full Tidying Up
Konmari stuff but I sorted things pretty well I would say.
Mother is currently tidying but she has given me three pairs of pants
so far and it would have been four had I not stopped her.
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10 may 2023
Tidied my room today! Took a bit more than 2 hours.
Not 100% done of course, but wow there's a big
improvement.
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05 april 2023
Found five (5) unused hard drives under my bed.
Four out of them (4/5) are probably for booting from.
At least one of them (1/4) is faulty.
Checked them just now.
- 2/5 are beyond hope
- 1/5 is making weird noises and also an issue related to me
being a noob. It was a faulty hard disk that I used for
my first attempt to install Linux on something.
- 1/5 needs a power cable so I couldn't check it
- 1/5 is from 1999 and I don't have an IDE to connect to it
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26 march 2023
Feeling good today. Good progress on astro lab.
What if I got an astrolabe...
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24 march 2023
Really busy month. Only about two weeks left until exams start, though.
Last day to drop a class. I think I'll stay in my lab course even though
I'm likely to fail, because I don't get a refund if I drop. Worst it could
do to me is drop my average and even then it won't be enough to put me on
probation. Want to see if I can take a CS course next term, those are
usually pretty fun.
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06 march 2023
I am once again stressing over a lab report.
Overdue: Lab report.
Progress: Automated the coordinate-finding thing. All 200+
images now have some reference stars I can use. I have a
feeling I'm way overcomplicating it though so I reached
out to my lab partner to confirm I'm not missing something
obvious. Otherwise I'll have to manually draw regions around
each of the stars.
This week:
Computational physics: low stress (doing well)
Quantum physics: low stress (doing ok)
Next week:
General relativity midterm (ultra high stress)
General relativity assignment (high stress)
I am not doing well in general relativity.
Tomorrow's agenda:
- My office hours shift (no stress)
- Quantum physics lecture (no stress)
- Work on lab report (stress! also need to manage distractions)
- GenRel office hours (low stress; the TAs for that course are SO nice)
- Go home and work on lab some more
Haven't been sleeping well lately. Adjusting to a medication
dose change and I've been turning in much later but waking
up before my alarm. I don't think I can justify going back
to sleep at 7 AM, though, since I'm always up by then on
workdays. I don't think it's healthy to sleep in on weekends.
Too much energy to go to sleep as early as I used to. Higher
energy is an effect of the medication I'm on and I think
the dose change is a possible reason. Could also just be
high stress, not unusual for me. I have a drs appointment
in 2 weeks so I can bring it up then.
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01 march 2023
This week is looking pretty bad.
Found out I had an assignment due Sunday that I didn't hand in. Need to get
that done tomorrow but I need my partner's input.
Have to work on overdue lab report.
Found out I have a midterm on Thursday. At least it's for my computational
course but damn. Damn... I can code pretty well but I need the damn docs
by me at all times. I do not have the memory for this. I remember the
intro "teaser quiz" sort of thing was writing what output some one-liners
had, and I was there going "but can you add this to that at all?" I thought
everything was gonna output an error...
Anyway. I'm starting to notice effects of HRT. Bottom growth is coming in,
which is very nice, but I don't have any pants that aren't too tight. I've
been needing new pants anyway, but I hate shopping for pants especially.
I can never find pants that don't hug my thighs. I suppose the T will take
care of that by redistributing some of the fat, but that takes a long
time.
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20 february 2023
Sick today. Taking it easy but there's nothing to do. Don't want to touch
homework, but probably should.
Argument with mother today.
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18 february 2023
Temporary break from schoolwork. But I do need to get to campus 4 days
a week still, despite it being reading week. Part of it is so I can go
to office hours and understand the assignments but a significant chunk
of it is for doctors appointments.
Basically since I spend every working day on campus anyway, I decided
to take care of all my medical business in between classes. Got a
health issue that's somewhat urgent now, and I need to get it dealt
with as soon as I can, and that means... blood testing on Tuesday
and appointment on Wednesday. Both in the morning. The office hours
for my courses are in the evening. So there's that.
In other news, I passed my quantum physics midterm!! They did change
the weighting of the questions because not enough people finished on
time, but for me I performed WAY better on question 2 than I did on
question 1. So I don't know if I should dispute my mark to get those
5% back. Well, I know I should, but I don't really have the energy
for it. Health problem is sapping most of it.
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14 february 2023
Mother remarked on my voice sounding deeper. Note: have been on HRT for
half a month so far, so it's definitely not that. I told her I went to
a free drama class where I learned that my voice pitches up as a response
to stress.
Partly true! The "drama workshop" was actually specifically
transgender voice training, but it was basically the same as drama
exercises from high school. Well, now I have established a good cover
story for my voice changes on T.
Aside from that, past two weeks have been hell in terms of deadlines,
and next two weeks are more of the same. In order of soonest:
- Computational physics assignment (simulating a pendulum)
- Quantum physics assignment (angular momentum)
- The dreaded lab report
Well. I'm looking forward to midwinter break.
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11 february 2023
Week is almost over. Handed in my Friday assignment just now, incomplete.
Despite being one of the first people to start the assignment. Haha.
Well, anyway, didn't do the Thursday assignment because I found out
we get late marks instead of automatic fails, unlike my other courses, so
I'll be doing that this weekend.
Been having a lot more body issues this year. Just pulled a muscle again,
and it's been happening a lot. Well idk if it's pullign a muscle but
it's been hurting for a while and it happened because I tried getting
up weirdly and bent something. Random muscles have been twitching lately
and I'm just hoping none of them decide to spasm again like in the
first week of January because my foot still has not recovered from that.
Actually that foot is doing pretty bad. I'm worried there's something
genuinely wrong with it now, because it's been hurting since then and
I know some bones got shifted out of alignment because I had to spend
January 6th trying to push them back into place. And it's been hurting
since but I figured it's because I haven't had time to rest at all so
far. Probably not helping.
Anyway currently my upper back is giving me issues so I'm going to
cut this short before I launch into discussing way more TMI shit.
Also the silver sauce bowls have been in use as mask holders this term,
looks quite nice to grab a mask out of a silver goblet-like thing.
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05 february 2023
Long week. Next week should be even longer. Ah well. Hopefully I'll
get enough work done over the weekend that I'll have time to study
on Monday.
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29 january 2023
Been getting really into the Persona 2 OSTs lately. Well, not too broadly
into it but depth-wise into it, as in I have a couple songs I really
enjoy but I don't know much beyond them.
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28 january 2023
Can't wait for this day to be over. Two homework assignments due today,
gave up on one partway; only left 3 marks out of 20 incomplete. Did that
because the second assignment is weighted more, in terms of impact on
my term GPA. A full 1.5 times more, at that. And I don't understand shit.
Whew, it's over.
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24 january 2023
Keep putting off making some healthcare-related appointments that would
improve my quality of life really quickly.
Homework due Friday. Not much progress made. Feeling really sleepy at
7 PM despite having woken up at 9 AM today. Perhaps a sign I'm just
not getting enough sleep, full stop.
Worried that I've overloaded myself in terms of committments but at
least I have Sundays free for now. Fridays too but I need those days
for aforementioned healthcare issues. Only one occupied Saturday
remaining until they're free too.
Set up auto-pay on my transit pass. No more running for a kiosk in the
early morning.
Trying to get into goth music, looked up "goth music" on Invidious and
started listening to a playlist with some 200 videos on it. Went for
She Past Away - Gerçekten Özleyince (Kesmeşeker)
because it looked Turkish. Ended up being Turkish for "When you really miss
(cut sugar)" according to DeepL translator. It seems shekjer had been a
Turkish loanword this whole time.
Head hurt all day. Had two mugs of tea with milk. Still need to comment
on something I finished reading earlier. Need to clean up my homework
writings into something I can actually hand in. Saw a BBC article that
claimed English-speaking Canadians were loyal to the Queen (older article).
Huh?? Who the hell in Canada cares about the royal family? Never met anyone
like that.
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19 january 2023
I haven't been here in a while
Currently swamped with a lot of schoolwork. Well. When am I not?
Anyway, went out to a community brainstorming event kind of thing
and it went really well. Met some cool people, exchanged emails
with one, will probably get the others at the next meeting I can
attend. It was very nice.
Currently reading ~owls' journaling article on its Neocities.
Currently procrastinating on General Relativity homework.
Thinking of adding a physics section to my website.
Listening to Persona 2 music (Vehicle handling, PSP ver.)
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08 january 2023
I'm back. Forgot how much I hate it here, and hate my life.
My brother decided to dump his old desk in here. It was my
old desk before it was his old desk, so I guess that's why.
But I did ask to swap for a reason. I guess I could make
it my workbench, have somewhere to put my sewing machine
and other things that would otherwise pile up on my computer
desk.
While I was living with my friends, I actually had a really
good time, until my flight got cancelled and I got bumped
to a different flight that got delayed by 3 hours. Forgot
my damn tablet in that city too, though my friend said ze'd
mail it to me.
I have got to start taking better care of this room. I'm
going to do that KonMari stuff again after I've gone through
my maintenance flowchart.
Also crabby because I had to drop a class I was really
looking forward to taking, but the textbook costs money and
the class meet time got pushed to the evening. I can't do
evening classes again, I refuse. My current schedule has
me finish before 3 PM for everything except a night lab
(it's astronomy...) and a supplementary thing that's in
the evening but I have to take this course to graduate and
it's only offered in the winter term. I can only hope it's
optional.
I wish they'd let us see the syllabi early.
Tried showing my mother a necklace I got while on the trip,
she immediately asked if it was some kind of idolatrous thing.
Okay, good to know that Facebook poisoning doesn't go away.
I think the only thing I can do regarding that is take control
of the household. Don't know how else to phrase it. But if I
take hold of cooking + cleaning now that I'm dropping my
evening classes then maybe I'll hate being in this place a bit
less. I'll have to do my own room first because it looks like
a mess. Part of it was from me packing, true, but what the fuck
has my brother been doing here? Why is there a dissassembled
desk and three big books in here?
Ok, went off to reorganize my clothes drawers and get rid of
some ill-fated sewing projects. Now back. Making myself a plan
Clothing: Newly reorganized. Shuffled everything in my drawers
around. Top left is now all underclothes, not just things that
touch bare skin but things I layer on top of those but can't
wear on their own, e.g. long johns, tight tops.
Top right is still socks. First big drawer is now accessories,
which have been warmly welcomed from the top of the drawer.
Top of the drawer is still quite cluttered. My little silver
dishes are still on that thing.
Second big drawer is still outdoor shirts, but not flannels.
Flannels are now in the bottom drawer, which used to hold
random fabrics and clothing in dire need of repair.
outdoor pants are still in third/penultimate drawer.
Books: Three new ones, gifts from my uncle I think? They look
very cool. My books are now straining the capacity of the
meager shelf I have assigned them. I need to figure out a way
to make one on my own, out of cheap or discarded materials.
Papers: Mostly pretty organized. I haven't accumulated too
many.
Miscellany: Ughhhh. Things keep piling up. At this rate I'll
need a second set of drawers, to be constructed same as the
non-existent bookshelf. Massive, massive TODOs all over the
place.
Sentimentals: Strewn around my closet floor, mostly. Some have
been incorporated as accessories. Gave a critical one to my
friend to keep safe, since it's a gift from the LGBTQ+ centre
I volunteered with for a long time. Forgot to bring the second
gift to zem as well. If either is discovered by my current
household, it would lead to a conversation I'd rather not have.
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26 december 2022
I have officially given up on botany! I just don't have the reason to get on
my PC every day now that I'm On Break. Plus I'll be visiting some friends
for about two weeks so I won't be able to get on my PC at all! The horror. I
would ask to get a new key for my phone or whatever but there is something
special about getting on a big computer with a clacky keyboard and big
screen. Makes me feel way cooler about being online than tapping at a
rectangle. I'm gonna miss my wizard tower.
To-do: Get that ISO onto a USB!! I've been working on a custom ISO for
Linux Mint (is that the lingo?) that has some extra programs pre-installed.
It's meant for one of the friends I'm visiting!!
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11 december 2022
Lab report progress
Ran into issues in my analysis. Exported the wrong graphs. Luckily, with
a brain cursed by the foulest spells of confusion, I did the whole
experiment at least twice and on one of my attempts I did get the right
graph. Unfortunately this means I have to do pixel analysis. Which means
booting into Windows because to this day the only paint program I've
learned how to use is paint.NET, and the WINE performance rating thing is
not good.
On the bright side, I do have part of the analysis done now, and I finished
the entire procedure section! Theory still needs work but I've already sunk
more effort into this report than healthy. I have got to get back to
reviewing stuff that will be on my exam. Exam starts late evening (7PM)
so I'll have time to finish my review tomorrow. Did a decent amount of it
on Thursday and just kinda crept sluggishly these past few days.
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05 december 2022
Have to vent this shit somewhere. Presentation is tomorrow and I'm
regretting my choice so hard. I chose the first experiment I did this
term because I learned a cool property of electric pulses from it but
then I got the actual lab report feedback (all the way at the end of
term, after I had already selected my final presentation) and wow
there's more mistakes in this one than in the last experiment I did.
Hate that!!! And now I don't know how my lab partner calculated these
velocity values so I guess I'll have to ask, and explain that I was
one of only two (2) fools in this class who picked this hellish lab.
At least that means my mark won't be impacted by a TA getting really
impressed by someone else's success?
13 hrs later: presentation is today
Don't know what it is about November through March but my thoughts
pitch to suicide the moment I'm under stress. Likely to be about
sunlight or not going outside but I already don't do those things
in the spring and fall and I'm not as suicidal then. Summer is also
fairly bad for me, too.
So far have done
- Introduction
- Apparatus
- Conclusions
Mostly done
- Theory (need to add things on resonance, impedance)
- Procedure (need more detail on C)
There's no way to get a decent thing for this anymore
There's just way too much missing. Why did I pick
this cursed experiment?
Well that went fucking awful. Had to skip a whole question
that was based on shit I literally knew because I drew a
blank and didn't include the damn graph.
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02 december 2022
Over the past couple days, I wrote up a really nice medieval
-looking stylesheet. I'm only going to use it on my Neocities,
though, because it heavily relies on fonts to do the style
work. I still need to do a lot of testing, especially on
machines where I don't have cool fonts installed, so I'll be
doing that first.
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28 november 2022
Cooked today. Pork ribs in soy sauce + ginger + pepper + yellow onions
- pomegranate molasses + vegetable oil. Also watched The Bear tv show,
that was pretty interesting. Marinade + bake for a while, started off
at an hour but it's been longer now and my mother says it can bake more.
Lab tomorrow, doing Fourier analysis again. Should be pretty easy, I've
got a decent function set up from the last lab I had to do. Next term
I have a course on more advanced computational physics concepts, and I
see Fourier transforms are on the description, so I'm basically gonna
be set for that part. I think labs should be done before lecture courses,
rather than during them. Doing a lab on cables really helped me with
mutual induction, before we actually did it in class. When I was doing
electrostatics I had to take the lecture concurrently with the lab, and
that was not as good.
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25 november 2022
Really feeling the end of term stuff. Hard to believe it's already almost
over. I have a comparatively lighter course load this term, so that's not
as bad as it usually is. Not that I would remember; I don't remember much
of anything about school by default.
Side note: vim is great because I can delete so many lines without ever
reaching for my mouse. Also I'm hungry again. Huh?? It's already been 4
hours???
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18 november 2022
Haven't been getting much sleep lately.
Wrote an essay on Roger Bacon. About to hand it in; see I had written
Francis Bacon instead. :/
And now, after an hour long commute, online class. Fun. Usually it's on
days I do not have a commute, but it got moved because of an assignment
conflict.
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15 november 2022
Urghhh just got done a lab report 4 hours ago and I still feel terrible.
Very irregular sleep the past few days. Still really tempted to just go
to bed now, but I really don't want to wake up in the middle of the night
for no reason. I guess I'll catch up on my physics lectures, then. Fallen
behind again.
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10 november 2022
Addendum to yesterday,
Train does not run until after my first lecture of the day starts.
Not sure if worth it to go to university for the other two. They're
intro-level electives because I did my course selection late. My first
is one that's actually required by my degree. Thankfully there's no
attendance checks at universities in my country, and honestly it
blows my mind that americans have that.
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09 november 2022
Redacted a lot of the stuff above this for melodrama. TL;DR: Bus route is
down, bus company is dragging its feet, and I'm physically unable to go
to university as a result. Unless I take the train in one direction for an
hour then ride it in the opposite direction for two. Not even factoring
in the time it takes to bus to the train station itself.
On top of all this. I've found myself obsessed with The Sims again. I'm not
even sure if I actually like the damn game. I found that I mostly already
had a plot when I sat down to play it. Why not just write it down in
story form then??? Ugh.
On the bright side, I'm currently reading The Left Hand of Darkness and I
really like it! I'm about to start Chapter 5. So far I'm interested in
how humans got to other planets, and how/why they fell out of contact
with each other. Why do the Gethenians have kemmer while the other humans
don't? I also find it interesting that the rest of humanity gets called
perverts, when in this world people will call you worse for a shifting/
changing gender.
Also, it's interesting that Genly defaults to gendering the Gethenians as
male. I somehow get the impression it's because Genly himself is a man.
Reminds me of reading something about how men would generally say "he"
and women would opt for "he or she" or something to that effect, but
honestly without context that observation seems wrong to me. It's still
rattling around in my brain though, and it is likely to have been true
in the past, or be true in social groups in which I'm not.
Oh, nice. Chapter 5 opens with "My landlady, a voluble man."
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23 october 2022
Debating whether to use an existing HTML pre-processor or just forge
on ahead with Python. So far, using beautifulSoup, I've managed to
generate a table of contents automatically, and of course clean up
my indenting. It does generate #ids for headings if they don't have
their own, but it doesn't work as well for the little blog section
on my index. This is all about my Neocities, by the way.
What I want out of a template:
<blogpost>
<htime datetime="2022-10-23" />
<p>Here's a bunch of text</p>
</blogpost>
to render as
<section id="2022-10-23">
<h3><time datetime="2022-10-23">October 23, 2022</time></h3>
<!-- or h4, h5, depends on the page -->
<a href="table-of-contents">Back to top</a>
<!-- hidden with CSS, only for keyboard navigation -->
<p>Here's a bunch of text</p>
</section>
Additionally,
<codeblock>
<summary>Graphing code</summary>
code goes here
</codeblock>
to render as
<details>
<summary>Graphing code</summary>
<pre><code>
code goes here
</code></pre>
</details>
Is there a semantic reason to use pre
? I'm pretty sure
I can just slap a class on the code
element and be done
with it, but if there's a semantic reason I probably shouldn't.
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21 october 2022
Zork!
Turning my home directory into an adventure game. Made
some changes to the navigation words because they tripped
me up the first time I played it.
Tips:
alias look="cat .description"
alias examine="cat"
alias x="examine"
I think every folder and subfolder on my directory has a
.description file. If anyone's reading this, please check
them out!
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14 october 2022
I've been thinking about making something similar to feels, but for
updating my Neocities. Or perhaps just moving my Neocities here and
making the feels-like thing update that, but I don't know how to
get files from this tilde onto my computer and vice-versa. Advantage
of Neocities is that I can just zip it up and take it.
Anyway, for mobile stuff, maybe use a mobile shell to SSH into my
computer, onto an account with no root access of course. Still,
concerned about attacks especially if I'm on public wifi. Not quite
sure how attacks work but I will learn and for now it just smacks
of a bad idea. Especially since my phone has not had a security
update since 2020. Google Pixel 2 and I've had it since 2018 at
most (could be 2017? I know I got it pretty close to release, like
a chump).
I can't even install a new OS on it because the down volume button is
broken and I need it to enter the mode where I can install things. I
keep postponing installing a new OS on either of my parents' old phones
(I hoard them, fuck the phone release cycle, they work fine). I think
once I get something decent and updated after 2020 on them it'll be safer.
Key: -er. Perhaps not safe, I don't know enough about security.
But that was a tangent. I remember talking with a meatspace (for lack
of a better word) acquaintance (possibly friend?) about this concept,
and they recommended some things about SSH security but since I neither
understood it fully nor wrote it down, it's lost to time. This is why I
should commit to bullet journaling, but I feel that system is too...
cumbersome? for frequent use. I need to lower the "activation energy"
of getting me to write stuff in it, and it can't just be "remember to take
it along" because anything beginning with "remember" is a lost cause with
me. This is also a tangent. Is it possible to have tangents in a stream
of consciousness? More like a topic change, unless I pivot back.
Fruitless tangent, on SMS
Pivoting back to the SSH stuff, I'm also thinking about *maybe* using
SMS like early Twitter, since I do want to make tweet-like things. That,
however, is very unlikely to actually happen because if I had an upper
word limit on stuff like this I'd tear it apart. Another reason I can't
use SMS. Another, still, is that while I don't know specifics, I'm
reasonably sure it's not secure enough to allow my computer to execute
actions based on an SMS. Any actions. Also, why in hell would I ever
try to put any SMS on my computer?? I'd get nothing but spam.
I hope the details summary thing works on my public_html.
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11 october 2022
Did today
- Got i3 as my window manager
- Played some sims
- Went for a walk
Head hurts, now convinced it's more because of the glasses than
the screen time (not that that plays a negligible role... the
opposite, in fact). My prescription has not been updated since
2019, but I have to delay getting new glasses because of insurance
issues. Might just bite the bullet and get glasses from a cheap
online place, this thing's been dragging on long enough.
Reading list put on hold. Got the Broken Earth trilogy as a gift
(physical, paperback) some time ago and still haven't read them.
Looking forward to them as my next commute read (bus... don't read
and drive).
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09 october 2022
Experimenting with Xfce themes today.
Booted into Windows to play the Sims. So fucking slow.
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08 october 2022
Some textbook site I had to use for a course-specific packet wanted me
to install its shitty proprietary PDF viewer to view things offline.
For a book I had already paid for. Not that they care, they see it as
licensing at best. Whatever. Their PDF reader did not allow me to log
in because my university wasn't on their list. Alright.
Ended up finding a Python script on GitHub that automates screenshots
for this specific service. Output was a nice PDF, a little blurry, but
still legible. I love the internet.
Note: my university allows me barely any access to anything. Weird.
Whenever I see a cool research article online, I have to ask my friend
to download it and send it to me instead. I don't know why my uni's
weird like that, most other universities in my country pool stuff
together in an access federation, from which my university is
conspicuously absent.
Finished reading up to Chapter 10 of Vinbre: The Novel, on AO3. Fucking
fantastic, so much original effort, worldbuilding, everything. Amazing.
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01 october 2022
Books
I don't have time to go back and use my awful reading list format.
Am about to finish Attack Surface by Cory Doctorow after seeing it on
the BBJ here. Also reading Vinbre the Novel on AO3, that can only
loosely be considered fanfiction. Gonna abandon Wizard of Earthsea,
it is not my thing (the irony, but I have my reasons).
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25 september 2022
Homework
Working on lab report. Not really sure how to get inductance and capacitance
from the diameters of this thing (cylindric capacitor) without also knowing
the permittivity and permeability of the dielectric. I guess I could do a
rudimentary calculation with just constants, setting permeability to 1
and permittivity to the permittivity of free space instead of its actual
material? Would that be allowed in the lab report?
The manual is pretty explicit that we use L and C to calculate other values
and then compare them to the experimentally determined values. But then the
last part of the analysis is to then use the experimentally determined vals
to find L and C.
Alright, since I'm using feels as a way to get this off my chest without
bugging my lab partner. Here we go.
Part 1 calls for calculating L and C from the diameters of the inner and
outer conductors. They didn't outline a method to do this, just said it's
in any E&M textbook. Fair enough, this is a third year lab, we should be
expected to do our own math. So I used two different textbooks because
fuck yeah, libretexts! Anyway, textbooks generally agree that you need
the permeability and permittivity for those, unless you wanna go the Q/V
route for capacitance. But we didn't measure the potential difference across
the inner and outer conductor (not possible in our case, cable) so we can't
do that.
Ending this right now to work. Fuck it why not. Worst case scenario we get
marks off.
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23 september 2022
Wrote a whole thing on BBJ, but then saw it was long and so I decided
to cut the whole thing and paste it into a file on my home directory
to later turn into a webpage or something.
I followed a tutorial on copying and pasting in nano.
I then found out that by exiting the nano in the BBJ, I have consigned
my writings to the ashes.
It's getting late. I'll post a shorter reply tomorrow.
It's tomorrow. Currently using lynx browser to read a tutorial on
using vim. I feel like a movie hacker.
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15 september 2022
Back
My back HURTS. OW.
I have a 2hr commute twice a week, and the bus always cranks
the AC. What the hell? I have to carry gloves and a scarf onto
the bus in the summer??
Reading list status
- [L] A Wizard of Earthsea - Ursula K. Le Guin
- [L] Are u ok? - kati morton
- [F] Robopocalypse - Daniel H. Wilson
- [F] The Traitor Baru Cormorant - Seth Dickinson
- [S] Redshirts - John Scalzi
- [S] Leviathan Wakes - James S. A. Corey
- [S] The Broken Earth Trilogy (Series) - N. K. Jemisin
- [H] The Body Keeps the Score - Bessel van der Kolk, M. D.
- [R] The Tyrant Baru Cormorant
- [R] The Monster Baru Cormorant
- [R] The Farthest Shore - Ursula K. Le Guin
- [R] The Tombs of Atuan - Ursula K. Le Guin
- [R] How to Invent Everything - Ryan North
Reading list legend
For stuff that's on my shelf, I wholeheartedly
welcome suggestions and notes in my email on tilde town.
For stuff that's not on this list, please email me
recommendations. If my library doesn't have it, I'll
email them.
I wish I could take an interlibrary loan on e-books
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04 september 2022
Silver
It's still September 3rd for me, but Feels is on a different timezone.
Today I used the power of science to untarnish (partially) some silver
I found. For religious reasons, two of the stubby goblet things (I don't
know what they're called) were used to hold rotten, hard-boiled, dyed
eggs. Granted, only one of them was cracked, and only by accident, but
I still think that the Hydrogen sulfide is the reason it tarnished.
The larger, serving-tray type of thing, was tarnished due to age.
The process I used, and the science behind it, is available on
TeacherSource.com
Today I watched piusbird's stream, also. I only got sound working a bit
before the Voyager theme was playing, and it sounded pretty cool. Proud
of myself for recognizing it even though it's been a while since I last
saw an episode.
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03 september 2022
Devices
I picked up my new tablet. It took me around four months to decide
to buy one at all, and a full month to look into the kind I would
need, but I still feel a bit of buyer's remorse. I'm hoping that
goes away soon, and that it's only because I'm using an Android
tablet. Android, iOS, no matter what it is, it's never good out of
the box. I hate using Google products.
Unfortunately it's also the only thing I can get that's affordable,
and in time for the start of term. I'm facing a 2 hour commute, and
hoping to use bus time as study time like I did this last term. This
last term I used my phone, though, and reading textbooks on it is
very uncomfortable.
A complaint: what the hell do you mean I can't have numbers in my
email address? Some websites (UPS website), I swear... And invalid
address? I will use my firefox relay email and you will accept it,
god damn it (many such cases!).
A further complaint: everyone in my family is getting a new phone
because of some promotion that makes it effectively free yadda
yadda years-long contract and so on and so forth. My phone works
fine for my purposes, and has since 2017 or so. Why should I
replace it? But my mom is "very concerned" and confused over this.
I already tape over my cameras, why would I need a phone with
not one, not two, but three backwards-facing cameras?
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01 september 2022
September
Well, I got myself some supplies for school.
2 hour commute, so I got a tablet. Fuck it!
Government sent me a grant, and it's not like
I'll be living on campus. Applying for my 40%
bus fare reduction tomorrow, but this last
term (summer) I basically murdered my eyeballs
trying to read PDFs on my tiny little phone
screen.
I edited the sed
expression that
asm (from tilde town) sent me, just to see that
I can. This is pretty damn versatile. I can see
myself using it for more things. I'm gonna
challenge myself to get it to swap my dates
with some actual titles.
Wrist hurts again.
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31 august 2022
Re: emails
It took me just about 3 (thankfully not continuous) hours to figure out
how to send emails on this. Interesting. For my own
reference.
In shorter terms,
cat Filename | mail Somebody(OnceToldMe) -s "subject"
I should make a tutorial section for things that stump me.
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30 august 2022
Good morning.
Woke up with pain in my right leg, in the hip and knee, ankle too but not as
much.
Yesterday I went on the IRC and the BBJ but I didn't say anything because I
feel I haven't lurked enough. I went and tested some bots on the IRC, though,
that was fun. I'll try again now, it's like 10 AM here so maybe there's a
conversation going on that I can at least watch if not join.
Fell asleep at 5 AM because I was reading my city's website. Thoughts on
parking because that was on the discussion board:
I don't think parking should be free. Parking not only costs the city
(surfacing costs, and so on), but also pedestrians. You try walking in a
parking lot in August: you'll fry. Try walking past it on the sidewalk:
you get cooked. Even without that heat, it's just... a LOT to walk past.
No shade, no shelter from the wind, nowhere to sit. Awful experience.
RE: big buildings like WalMart, why don't they just put their damn parking
on the roof? It's already flat concrete garbage. Just add a ramp.
Sprawled out garbage store. Why is it all one floor? Awful. At least build
stuff on top of it.
Just upset myself over finances so I erased that entire paragraph.
Reading list status: unchanged.
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29 august 2022
Hello world!
This is my first time using tilde.town, and my first time using Gopher.
It's pretty fun so far. I've been on the garden, watered my own plant and
then owls', and that's been cool.
To do:
- Find Zork!!
- Figure out public_html
- Holodeck...
- Just run through everything on the wiki
Finally figured out how to edit these. I'm glad. I removed the h1
that was here.
Reading list status
- [L] Robopocalypse - Daniel H. Wilson
- [L] The Traitor Baru Cormorant - Seth Dickinson
- [H] The Tyrant Baru Cormorant
- [H] The Monster Baru Cormorant
- [H] The Farthest Shore - Ursula K. Le Guin
- [H] The Tombs of Atuan - Ursula K. Le Guin
- [H] How to Invent Everything - Ryan North
Reading list legend
- [L] is for loan from the library
- [H] is for on hold from the library
- [F] is for finished
- [S] is for series
Some books I finished recently, but before I joined tilde.town:
- [F] Marrow Thieves - Cherie Dimaline
- [F] Passage - Connie Willis
- [S] Murderbot Diaries - Martha Wells
Wow, I wish Libby would stop telling me how many people are waiting.
I'll get to it when I get to it!
If you're reading this and you're not me, feel free to email
me some book recs.
Sorry, somehow my terminal froze and I had to close it and start a new one.
But it still says I'm editing this. Weird. Anyway, that's it from me.
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